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Good(bad) Poetry [24 Jul 2006|08:12am]

If I keep myself cutting
will I finally find the place
Inside these veins
where I don't see your face

If I keep myself tearing
at the spot in my mind
Will you eventually be a memory
that no one can find

How do I make it end
Do I want it to end?

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Even God is Emo [30 Sep 2005|03:45pm]


Gotta read the next few ones, too.
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[02 Sep 2005|09:10am]

[ mood | bouncy ]

oh man. yesterday. theres this small group of elementary school kids in the neighborhood where i work... they like to come in to the shop and buy stuff. they're in like once a week. so yesterday, they came in... 3 of them. one of them had a emo haircut... and he was really pale and his hair was dyed black. i laughed a little to myself. they were asking sarah a question and i blurted out "are those girl pants?"... and they were. a 6th grade emo boy. :D oh man.

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[23 Jun 2005|06:14pm]

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[13 Jun 2005|06:32pm]

[ mood | sad ]

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I have to share [11 Jun 2005|05:49pm]

[ mood | numb ]

So I was walking into Zias just about an hour ago and I saw something that made me feel just a little less sad for the world. Walking though the parking lot with a brother or something was a little 5 year old emo kid. Studded belt, bangs, all in black. It was just great. He was even wearing a Fallout Boy shirt.

For a minute I think I almost felt happy. But then I saw that they still don't have an xcore section so I had to carve a poem in my arm.

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[10 Jun 2005|12:32am]

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You have to read his comment down at the bottom by the copyright too [09 May 2005|07:05pm]

[ mood | sad ]


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Lost Friend. [01 May 2005|12:13am]

[ mood | crushed ]

So, the other day I was out shopping (at Russian run second hand stores and Hot Topic!!!!!!!!!oneoneone!!!e1even!!!111!!!) and I ran into an old friend in the food court. Please understand (even though no one understands me) that this girl was the mostest emo girl I have ever been friends with in my whole miserable existence. So much so, that she tried to slit her wrists in a coffee shop using plastic forks. The fork tongs kept breaking, but she just kept going, breaking fork after fork in a fevered attempt to end her terrible life. When she realized she couldn't off herself using plastic forks she just sat there and cried into her latte. I suggested she use a spork instead, because they're stronger. She vowed never to be my friend again and stormed, sobbing out of the coffee shop.

I wrote her an apology poem and we had a good cry over the whole thing. But, I hadn't seen her in a very long time. Then all of a sudden, there she was, eating a cinnabon. We almost collided.

After a few moments of saying stupid meaningless things like "hi", I suddenly noticed she was wearing Old Navy head to toe, and none of it was black! She had let her NATURAL HAIR COLOR GROW OUT and was dragging along a guy wearing some sort of sports jersey and baggy pants!

I just blurted out "What happened to you?"

You won't believe what she said. "I got help for myself, M. I went to a doctor and he helped me. I went through lots of therapy. He put me on some anti-depressants which really helped. I did some time in groups trying to sort myself out, and I made so many friends there I can hardly count them. Lots of people just like you and me. Well, like we used to be anyway."

USED TO BE? I was stunned. I wanted to cry, but I was so overwhelmed that I couldn't. It was an awful feeling. I wrote a poem about it later.

Then she dropped a bomb on me. "I also found Jesus. I'm a mormon now."

All of a sudden I knew how she felt that day when I told her a spork would work so much better. Like my friend had turned on me! And she did! SHE TURNED ON ALL OF US!!!ONETHOUSANDONEHUNDREDELEVEN!!! I poured my heart out to her right then and there. I told her all about how my life was going. All the shows, all the studded belts, all the black hair dye and eyeliner. I told her about how I wrap myself in wet blankets, walk to a secluded area, role in the soggy pete moss, cry and cut until dawn, or until stray dogs chase me away. I really let into her.

You know what she said to me? "I'll pray for you."

You know what I said? "I'll cry for you."

Then I went back to shopping, although, I did make a special purchase at Hot Topic and dedicated it to the memory of one of the most xhardxcorex girls I USED TO know. Red eyeshadow, to match the blood mixed with my tears, both that I shed for my lost friend.


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Star Wars TV Series: Emo Style [29 Apr 2005|05:25am]

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comm update [28 Apr 2005|12:47pm]

[ mood | emo ]

Well with the recient addition we know have a total of 10 approved members. That means that we need at least 5 members (simple majority) to approve someone, so we need people to be more active with the voting and stuff. But otherwise...hey, were in double numbers! Wait, that was too happy...I mean damn, we're in double numbers. Whoo-hoo. I'm gonna go and cry.

I also put in a new user pic for the comm. I wanted it to have one of it's own instead of one of the ones on mine that I just didn't use very much. But still, we got a new pic. So tell me what you think of it.

Well it's time for my visit to the corner. See ya.

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OMG OMG OMG!!! [28 Apr 2005|12:33pm]

[ mood | hopeful ]

Take the quiz: "Who is your emo boyfriend?"

your so cool! you love to sing and scream in your songs. you also write your songs with feeling and emotion.

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I just figured I'd join the crowd... [27 Apr 2005|02:08pm]

[ mood | disappointed ]

Since everyone else slacked on the poetry, I decided to slack on the results. I was planning on having everyone vote for your favorite and they would get 15 scene points, but since there were only 2 people that bothered to enter, they both get 15 scene points each.

So congrats to spids69 and it123 for actually taking the time to write something and take part in our contest.

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[27 Apr 2005|10:09am]

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A Little Piece of Me for You All to See *brands poetry on his thigh* [22 Apr 2005|01:49am]

[ mood | numb ]

Contradiction of Life

a soul that finds joy in so little,
yet looks for the qualities in others that would make them most happy
a heart that aches to see suffering aside from it's own,
yet knows that though it wants to,
it can't always fix every problem
a man,
always searching for a woman who understands the way he feels,
yet feels there may be none
a love that's always shattered,
yet knows no bounds or limits
a mind that's potential is limitless,
yet restrains itself and loses out

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[20 Apr 2005|08:36pm]

Some times
I just need to yell at teh top of my lungs
(those are the times when I cannot)
Some times
I just need a hug
(those are the times when no ones around)
Some times
I just need to try
(those are the times when I should not)
I just need to hope
(those are the times I need to despair)
I just need to die
(those are the times I am most alive)
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A reminder... [20 Apr 2005|04:14pm]

[ mood | blah ]

It's wednesday. Poems for the contest are due friday night. People asked it to be extended to 2 weeks last friday and it was, and still there's no entries. So yea, just reminding you guys...friday.

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wow... [17 Apr 2005|10:58pm]

[ mood | discontent ]

It's like a mirror into my soul

What is your emo band name? by spiralinghalo
Your band name is:An Ounce of Prozac
You sound like:Lifetime
You will be signed to:Equal Vision Records
Your emo lyrics are:"Puncture my heart with the pen that you used to write to me with"
Quiz created with MemeGen!
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ok, ok... [16 Apr 2005|03:37am]

[ mood | sad ]

Well since I went out tonight and now I can't find my knife to cut myself up wtih to release the angst, I suppose that I'll just extend the contest for another week. So next friday at 10pm or so, thats when I'll have the cut off. So yea, you guys got an extra week to get in those poems and earn yourself 15 shiny new scene points.

I'm gonna go and cry in my pillow now I think cause my corner is getting fumigated for bugs that are attracted to blood and tears. I didn't want to do it cause they'r eliving creatures too, but my mom was all like "Hey, this is unhealthy and needs to stop." And so I wrote her this really sad poem about suicide and she told me that it was either the bugs going, or I was getting sent to a shrink. And you know, I don't want a shrink. It's not like that can actually understand the torment that I go though everyday...

Umm, that was off topic. anyways, you guys got an extra week to get up those poems. I look forward to crying along with you.

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I'm gonna cry... [15 Apr 2005|05:58pm]

[ mood | crushed ]

We got like, 4 hours til the deadline that I posted will be up for the contest. And so far we have a whopping ZERO entries! So unless everyone is planning a last minute thing, then I'm gonna cry in a corner while cutting myself and then post a picture of it to show what you all did to me.

Now go, write your poetry, and post it up here for all of us to share each others pain.

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